Last night I joined the Bikini Rebellion.
Neghar Fonooni has a blog that a friend from work suggested I look at and I joined the two week Bikini Rebellion with her. The theme is: the secret to getting a Bikini Body is to actually put a bikini on your body. Simple words but hard to do. I am thinking I will start small with something like The One Piece Bathing Suit Rebellion or The Shorts Rebellion. This is going to be made possible by empowering, respecting, and loving the body I am in.
Now, I do not always hate this body but for the most part I am simply disappointed in it. Has it let me down or have I let it down? Who is actually in charge here? Intellectually, I know we should love ourselves but how does one go about changing feelings on something that are so ingrained.
Somewhere along the way it was suggested that I wasn’t quite up to snuff. A high school boyfriend told me I needed to lose weight. He came right out and said it. “You should lose weight!” He was even helpful enough to demonstrate a type of exercise that would trim down my hips. At that point in time I was 145lbs on a 5’9” frame which I know now was a very reasonable weight but at seventeen I didn’t think so, not when a lot of my friends weighed far less. For some reason the fact that I was half a foot taller than most of them didn’t seem to factor infor me.
Honestly, I am uncomfortable with this self-love movement. It seems a bit self-absorbed in a way that goes against the way I was raised. There was a lot of shaming that went on when I was growing up about women who spent time on themselves. Women who worked out or painted their nails or even read a book obviously had too much time on their hands. Clearly it wasn’t just past boyfriends who did a number on my psyche.
The how and why of how I ended up here is easy to figure out but what I am interested in now is how to stop the negative self-talk and self-destructive behavior. I’ve had what I considered success with my weight and fitness level but I always end up stopping and undoing whatever good was being done. I am now considering the idea that if I can try all the fad diets at least once perhaps I can try this love and acceptance thing.
– Anonymous Mom
What do you think about the Bikini Body rebellion? Comments are greatly appreciated, post yours below. Lets Start a conversation!